Deflated after clinic

So had my little clinic appointment today which I was kinda looking forward to as I've been working my arse off to be healthy at the moment plus exercising which is so unlike me, since leaving hospital I haven't had any days were I've just sat In all day and done nothing, but it's felt good. 

So last few days I haven't been feeling as well as I could be but still kept going, despite this I had high hopes for clinic results! 

So I get there, get weighed that was highest for me In God knows how long 41.2kg! So I was thinking sweet that's good bring on lung function...

Physio comes in, I'm all buzzing to tell her that I've actually carried on with exercise at home and not given up like I usually do after leaving hospital! So I do my lung function-22% 😔I thought right stand up really go for it first one might be a warm up..22% again 😭 proper gutted! 

I'm trying not to be too hard on myself, Rome wasn't built in a day and it's just numbers, I'm better than I have been in a while it's just so frustrating when you want something so bad, my last lung function was 26% but I was on steroids and ivs so I knew it would drop a bit just was hoping not that much. 

Anyways onwards and upwards it's just going to push me to work these lungs harder and my weights good so that's a boost! 

That's all from me 

Love love 

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