So I have being typically looking on Pinterest as I do most nights when I can't sleep (again thank you Devil S) and this bank holiday weekend I have gone all out and eaten like an absolute pig! Curry, pizza express, and the best pudding ever
All amazing but let's face it I can't sit here and complain about my weight and bloating when I'm eating all of this rubbish and carbs just do not agree with my tummy situation!
So back to Pinterest I have been looking at diets etc and found one that could work for me! It's called the Paleo diet, it basically is like going back to the cave men days, only eating meat fruit and natural stuff, no processed rubbish, no carbs and grain, and ESP no sugars and fizzy drinks!
Now this is the biggest challenge for me, I'm addicted to redbull! I know so bad bla bla bla but addiction is an addiction and redbull is my weakness! But over the last week Aswell as drinking it I have been drinking more water! So I'm just going to go cold turkey and not drink it.
I have holiday in less than a month so I've decided to do my own 30 day challenge. Keep to this diet as best as possible, try go to the gym at least 3 times a week, do the 30 day squat and plank challenge and try drink as much water as possible.
Avoiding going out to restaurants, keep away from corner shops at work! And keep a log of my daily process and video it so I don't give up! Like a distraction! Il do my weight tomorrow morning, and a selfie to start and then just see where this leads to. It might all be a fail but il be happy just avoiding redbull to be honest and fizzy drinks but if I can stop the bloating and loose a bit of weight that will be a massive bonus! I want to look half decent in a bikini!
So I wanted to blog so I've thrown it out there now and can't hide or back track on it! I've got to have the will power and prove to myself that the way I'm living at the moment is not how I can anymore.
It's such a head fuck, growing up constantly being told to eat shit and put weight on, to now completely changing life style, and being on Steriods, it's a nightmare because all you think about is food, or what to eat and planning meals. Sometimes I spend no joke hours in my head having a debate weather to eat something or not! I'm always thinking about food and then when I start eating the is no stop button, no matter how full or bloated I am! I actually miss the sickness feeling sometimes and I wouldn't wish that on anyone, that's how desperate I am sometimes!
I hate the way I look now, I look in the mirror and don't see George, I see this fat little chubby faced, bloated person! I don't feel sexy, I hate shopping or going to places to dress up because I can't where tight fitted clothing anymore!
I mean I am so grateful to be here and wouldn't change it, just wish I didn't feel so down about how I look all the time! Thank god I take citalopram because I would prob be so depressed haha
Anyway so wish me like for these diet plans and challenges! And let's see if it works! I will prob post in sexy photos and I apologise in advance just want to keep it real!